You would think with the two weeks I had in between semesters that I would have blogged some, oh well. Now that I am going into my third week of this semester I ought to give you a little something to read. I must warn you though, this entry will be a bit vague as I need to turn my attention towards studying since I have my first exam tomorrow morning.
Today has been trying for me, I can actually say I haven't cried this much in months, not since MA. I have been dealing with a girl from the UHEAA's office to get a student loan rolling for me, yet it was today she decided to tell me, "Oh, yeah, we cannot accept any new students. You have to go through your school." Okay chicka, why wouldn't you tell me this over two weeks ago when I got in touch with you? And by the way, my summer tuition is due today...still waiting to hear about another loan, please cross your fingers for me. If tuition is not paid they drop my classes and I no longer attend Summer semester. It will all work out just fine, I feel it!
There are a few things I am learning from this experience, 1) of course I am not perfect, I am not rich and I do make mistakes, but I don't need to be quite about my finances, I don't need to be quite about anything. If I want others to be in my life, the same they are inviting me into theirs, I need to be more open. I don't need to guard myself the ways I am, that is becoming destructive. 2) give myself more than two weeks if I know something big is going to happen, be prepared beyond prepared...this is my life I am living anyway! And 3) There are many people around who care about me, care about what I do, how I do things, I need to let them in more.
On my way back from signing a form at the university, I pulled into a local coffee house for a large Chia Tea Latte (with soy); through my tear stained face I realize as one girl is handing over my hot latte that I wanted it iced (the temperature is quite warm here today, extremely different from yesterday). Both girls didn't put up a stink about, they smiled and said, almost at the same time, "Don't worry about it, we will make you an iced one!" My gracious reply, "Thank you, I do understand that I did not communicate with you that I wanted soy. Is it the same price?" One of the sweet girls said, "I think it is the same price but I am not going to charge you again." I insist on paying since it was, in fact, my communication error, but they insisted more, instead of paying for another latte I tipped them big instead.
It is true, I do not like people to tell what to do and how to do it, but I thrive on opinions and different angles to see things. This too, tells me to not put up a silly guard, if I talk more about my finances, I am sure they will improve...right? At least that is what the Smart Cookies girls say!
These thoughts are broken, mainly because OB in the front of my head and know I ought to be concentrating on that more. If you are all lucky though, you will be able to read about how well things went and are going for me.
Cheers!
